So Done

They say that once you become a Senior you are infected with a disease. It's unavoidable, and it only gets stronger are graduation date draws closer. One by one, your classmates will start dropping off and you'll notice your graduating class shrinking and succumbing to the disease. It's your job to push through the disease, and hard as it seems, it's something that you have to do if you want a future for yourself at all! And of course we all want the best future for ourselves!

The only prolem is that this disease has one deadly feature, and it is that feature that is the main reason that it is so easily succumbed to: it makes its victim forget. The afflicted begin to forget who they are, why they've endured High School for this long, who and what they want to be in the future, and what really matters now. They begin to stop caring.

Forgive me for quoting my Economics teacher, but sometimes we have to make ourselves worse off in the present in order make ourselves better off in the future. And as High School Seniors afflicted with this disease we are constantly either forgeting or struggling with this concept. I don't care who you are, I know that you have had to deal with this just as I am. And if you're younger than a Senior and feel like you're suffering now... just wait young grasshoppers. It'll getcha, and then you'll know what REAL Senioritis feels like.

Oh!

Now I lost you didn't I? :)

This is a serious post, and Senioritis isn't just a joke excuse that kids use to defend themselves when they choose to slack off. It is a very real threat that needs to be addressed. How do I know about this so well you may ask? Well folks, I am suffering from it just as hard as anybody else, and I am finding it harder and harder to push through and remember what I'm doing this all for. Gosh it can be so dang discouraging to look at this next month and a half and try to asses all the emotions that I'm feeling right now.

Fear.

Hope.

Dread.

Excitement.

Exhaustion.

What's really waiting for me after graduation day? Why can't I just race to it right now instead of enduring these last painstaking weeks in twelfth grade? Will I know what to be? Will I know who to be? Who in my life right now will stay, and who will go? Am I willing to let this go? Am I willing to stay this much longer? Am I willing to get over myself and savor these last few weeks of childhood that I have, or am I so hungry for the rest of my life that I am willing to shed this coccoon and spread my wings?

I don't know.

I'm still figuring things out right now.

But this video sure helped to put things in perspective for me.

1. It helped me bring a focus back on the gospel, and on Christ, and that always helps to center me.

2. It applied so perfectly to this sticky situation that I am in, and I was so grateful for her comforting words of enduring to the end.