Frustrations

So life is really good. Like, really good! I'm probably the happiest right now that I've been in quite a long time, things are just generally genuinely great!

However, there are some things that have been making my head spin, may I share?

#1-Trek Frustration!

No, not the trek itself, that thing was dearer than dear! No, it's the fact that I typed up all of my experiences on the Trek and my testimony on it and it was not saved. I had printed a copy of it out with the letter I am just about to send to Jeffrey in his birthday package, but I really really really really really really really can't express enough how much I hate havig to re-do things, especially things like this! Just ask Erika, I nearly had a mental/emotional breakdown when the Mormon.org profile I had spent an hour creating was all lost. So... that is the reason behind my lack of postage 'bout the Trek. Keep that post in your prayers... hopefully it'll happen.

#2-Job Frustration!

I really need to get a regular, depandable job. As I'm, getting older and have moved around so much I hardly get any babysitting offers anymore, and when I do it always seems like I'll get about seven offers for the same weekend and then nothing for another month or so. This saddens me, because babysitting is the only job I have ever had, and I love it, and I'm good at it, and it pays really well. But it's time I realize that I'm getting older and need to find a more dependable job... and that makes me sick to my stomach. You might not be able to guess this about me, but I'm somewhat of a sociaphobe. Formal social situations intimidate me, so the prospect of having to be employed working behind a counter dealing with people's money and bosses and customers frightens me ALOT! I was hoping that maybe I'd be able to be employed at a Library but it turns out that that's really more of a volunteer thing, plus those who do get employed are only paid like... four dollars an hour or something. I also thought about doing piano lessons or clarinet lessons, but I have lots of doubts in my abilities to teach piano since I taught myself, and how am I going to find people to take clarinet lessons? It's a little too uncommon to be able to find students like THAT! Then my friend Jake just got a job ushering at Hale Theatre, and my mom was like, "Jadyn, you should ask him if they need anybody else because you'd LOVE that job!"... tis true. I would love that job. But I can't bring myself to ask Jake about a job availability there! He got in, it sounds like, because the owner of the Theatre is a family friend... so I don't know. It sounds like the perfect job for me since it's really only a weekend job (which is when I could really only work), but I'm afraid to ask. *sigh* Wish me luck in these endeavors.

#3-College Frustration

Really, what High School Senior isn't stressed out about College? I've decided for sure now that I want to start out at Community College and then go to BYU-I. That is THE plan. The only question at all is which Community College. I really want to go to Eastern Arizona College with my best friend Mimi and get the "out on my own" experience without having to move out of state, but the more and more serious I get about leaving, the more it seems like my parents want me to stay home. On the way to church this morning my mom said that she and my dad had been talking about it and that, though it was my decision, they both thought it was smart that I stay home and go to CGCC and consider a potential job offer I had gotten a few months ago. There was this family in my last ward with a little autistic boy named Ryan, and they had asked my parents right before we moved if I was 18 yet. They had said no and when they asked why the parents said that Ryan's little helper had moved away or something like that and that they had been considering me for the replacement. Basically I'd work with him, drive him around, and just be there for him for various things (at least that's what I understand of it). The thing is, to be eligible for the training I'd have to go through I have to be at least 18. My parents said that it'd be smart for me if I stayed home and did that because I'd get to 1.) Stay home, 2.) Be paid well, and 3.) Have special training that would look good on my resume for both college and other jobs that would set me apart from other kids my age. While I see where they're coming from, and I can see how that would be such a wonderful and rewarding experience... I don't know... :/ I just don't know if that's what I want to do. I'm not evil or anything, I don't hate mentally handicapped children! Quite the contrary! Yes, sometimes I get a little bit nervous interacting with them because I'm not really sure how to act, but the training I'd get would take care of that I'm sure. I really do love those sweet spirits that our Father in Heaven has blessed us with, I just don't know yet if that's really what I want to do. *sigh* And I have to have applications in by December.

So yeah, that's all. Any advice? Thoughts? Now is the time to share your opinions people. I don't care if you're a best friend or a lurker, I just want to know what all y'all think. I would really appreciate outside imput! Please and thank you! :)